Update, September, 2018: I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had a mastectomy on September 21st; in the coming weeks, I'll be having chemotherapy. Given that I have ongoing chronic illnesses that already sap my energy, I will probably be unable to reply to comments until I'm finished with chemotherapy. But please keep leaving them! A thoughtful comment on one of my stories really gives me a lift, and I SO need that right now.
My pen name is intended to be truth in advertising. :-)
I'm a middle-aged woman who's loved Star Trek in general and Mr. Spock in particular since 1969, when I was 11. I'm a Kinsey 5, but I'd make an exception for Spock. :-)
(I have no connection with weirdlittlestories.com; I didn't know that person existed when I chose this pen name, and I apologize for any confusion.)
I have a chronic illness, which limits my ability to do things. Some days, my illness limits me a little; other days, it limits me a lot. I do intend to finish all of the stories I've started, and I do intend to answer most of the comments I get. Because of my illness, I can't always do so as quickly as I would like, however. I apologize to anyone I've disappointed.
I have two challenges up on this site; I'd love it if someone would write either "Lost in the Crowd of Your Friends" or " A Better Captain Through D/S."
Although I do write stories where Kirk and Spock are lovers, I almost never write M/M sex. I'm mostly a lesbian, myself, so male bodies don't interest me much, and I can't properly convey the enthusiasm that the boys would have for the activity. :-)
I focus on the emotional aspects, which tend to be the ones I find most interesting, anyway. Did I mention that I'm a licensed clinical psychologist in real life? Yeah, a Vulcan mind meld is my all-time favorite fantasy ... to see what's really IN another person's mind. *sigh*
My non-K/S Star Trek stories can be found at AO3.
Jim wonders why a relationship that can't produce offspring is accepted by Vulcans, and Spock explains how logical it is.
Someone from the Enterprise's crew must have their character tested by an alien "god" in order to finish their mission. Spock is chosen to represent the Federation, and he learns some things about himself in the process.
(The title is a famous line from "Mirror, Mirror," but there's nothing Mirror about the story.)
Spock's mother has a productive conversation with James Kirk, one that dismantles some of the assumptions Jim has had about Spock.
Amanda smiled. "You just don't understand Vulcan sexuality, that's all, Jim. Human sexuality is like a light bulb, whereas Vulcan sexuality is like a laser."
When Spock is attacked by a creature that kills telepaths by consuming the energy of telepathic minds, Kirk tries many things to save him.
Later, the boys figure out how to save Vulcan from an unusual threat.
(Rated Teen for language, but most of the violence occurs off-screen, and there's no sex. There are a couple of kisses, but those are medicinal. (Yes, really!) This story is not a romance, and only friendships are included. Not that I have anything against romance; it's just not what I'm writing here.)
Kirk gets some advice about wooing Spock from an unusual source. (No, not McCoy. No, not Amanda. No, not Sarek. :-D)
She said, "You think that you need to get Spock to admit that he has emotions before you can confess your love for him, and I'm not saying that you're wrong. But I can tell you that you're going ABOUT IT all wrong."
This is a series of missing scenes that add to — or resolve — the events of the episodes. Many (but not all) of those missing scenes will involve a meeting between Kirk and Spock to talk over the events of the mission after the conclusion of the episode.
Each chapter is a stand-alone story, so you don't need to wait until all 79 chapters are finished to read them. :-)
Chapter 9: Epilogue for "Amok Time" -- Spock explains some important aspects of Vulcan culture to Kirk and has an enlightening conversation with T'Pau.
(See the Author's Notes at the end of the first chapter for the assumptions, plans, and goals that underlie this series.)
Vulcans have very different standards of beauty than humans do, but it truly doesn't matter to Spock that Kirk is ugly by Vulcan standards, since Kirk's mind and character are so very beautiful. After months of loving Kirk, Spock is intrigued to discover that his opinion of Kirk's physicality begins to change...
As the sole Vulcan on board a ship bearing 429 humans, Spock has an obvious role to play. Yet this role should not become TOO obvious, lest this undermine the humans' confidence...
Kirk and Spock talk over Spock Prime's death.
(The "major character death" in the warnings is, of course, Spock Prime's; no one else dies.)
Kirk has trouble believing that Spock doesn't understand common idioms, so Spock explains why he pretends not to.
When Spock catches Kirk with a Wonder Woman comic book, the explanation of how he got the book and why he's reading it surprises the Vulcan greatly.
A visit to a planet where spouses don't exist and friendship is the foundation of society paradoxically causes Kirk and Spock to realize that they want to be more than friends.
(In other words, don't be put off by the title; they'll be more than friends by the end of the story. :-D)
In love with Spock? Of course I'm in love with Spock — have been for years — and he with me, and that relationship is richer and more fulfilling than anything I ever expected to have, as a boy growing up. The only problem is that I'm completely heterosexual ... and so is Spock.
Oh, so you want the details? Well, I'll tell you.
When Spock says they can't be lovers unless Kirk can handle pon farr, Kirk suggests that they have a "practice" pon farr, to see if things will work between them. Spock is dubious, because past human lovers haven't been able to handle Vulcan sexuality in all its glory, but of course Jim Kirk is experienced, tough, and an adrenaline junkie. :-)
"I would take control of your body and your mind. I would claim you for my own and mark you as mine. Nor would these marks be merely decorative or purely symbolic; I would tear your flesh with my teeth and leave you bleeding beneath me."
Kirk thinks it's an inarguable fact that he and Spock are very different, but Spock Prime begs to differ.
Although this story is set in the reboot universe, it's at least as much about the TOS characters as about the AOS ones; it's set in the reboot universe because Spock Prime was the right speaker for this little tale.
(Rated T for language, but there's neither sex nor violence in this story.)
Kirk talks to McCoy about his romantic relationship with Spock. As Kirk reveals some details about Vulcan relationships, McCoy is surprised at just how happy Jim Kirk is with his Vulcan lover.
"Vulcans don't need to ADD romance or drama to their sex lives, because evolution already gave Vulcans the most romantic and dramatic sexuality I've ever heard of."
Why do people call Spock "Kirk's Shepherd"? There's nothing at all sheeplike about Jim Kirk!
A short short.
When Spock's biobed readings are anomalous, Spock has to explain certain aspects of Vulcan life to Kirk and McCoy.
(No, not pon farr; this is new Weird Vulcan Stuff, not the Weird Vulcan Stuff you already know and love. :-D)
A deep meld with Spock shows Kirk that there's more to his Vulcan friend than he'd realized.
McCoy wants to know what Kirk saw in Spock's mind when Spock mind-melded with Kirk at the end of "The Paradise Syndrome" — does the Vulcan feel, or doesn't he?
Kirk won't tell, but he does give McCoy a rather large hint.
(Although I sometimes write BDSM, there's none in this story; the "chain" in the title has nothing to do with kinky sex. :-D)
This is a short little character study with no relationships beyond friendship.
